Joshua’d To Do List

Sorry mom. I don’t want to go to dad’s grave today because I need to get to my list.

Me: what list?

9 year old: My list of responsible things I need to do to be a good worker.

Me: Oh! That’s very responsible of you. What is on your list?

9 year old: Things like I did this morning that weren’t magic. You know, feeding the cat and unloading the dishwasher. I need to clean my room and do other things that will be helping you. I can dump your bucket of water for you. (The pool pump leaks and I have to dump a bucket every 2-3 hours) 💪

Me: I’m down with that! Let’s go home. 🥰

So babe, that’s why we’re not visiting your grave today. 📋

Comments

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