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 Hi, I’m Ember.

For most of my marriage, I thought my story was heading toward divorce — not heartbreak.

Sam and I were married for 23 years, and behind closed doors we struggled deeply. We loved each other, but we were also stuck. Years of hurt, resentment, stress, disconnection, and intimacy struggles slowly wore us down. By 2020, I honestly believed I hated him more than I loved him.

I thought our marriage was dying.

And in many ways, it was.

But somehow, God stepped into the middle of our mess and slowly brought us back to each other.

Not overnight.
Not perfectly.
Not like a movie.

But little by little, our marriage healed.

The walls came down.
The friendship returned.
The intimacy returned.
The laughter returned.

After more than two decades together, we finally found the kind of marriage I had always hoped was possible. 

And then, just a few years later, Sam died unexpectedly from a heart attack.

A healthy Ironman athlete.
A father of six.
My person.

Sometimes it still doesn’t feel real.

This blog exists in that strange space between grief and gratitude… between heaven and earth… between the life we had and the life I’m now learning to carry without him.

Here you’ll find stories about:

  • marriage redemption
  • widowhood
  • faith
  • motherhood
  • raising children after loss
  • autism parenting
  • healing
  • heartbreak
  • and learning how to keep living when part of you feels gone

You’ll also find ordinary moments.

Because grief isn’t only crying in dark rooms.

Sometimes grief looks like:

  • learning how to fix things yourself
  • standing in Home Depot overwhelmed
  • hearing a song in the grocery store
  • cleaning out closets
  • paying bills
  • watching your children miss their dad
  • laughing unexpectedly
  • and realizing life somehow keeps moving forward

For years I documented our family because I thought I was preserving memories.

Now I realize I was also preserving pieces of Sam for our children — especially for our two youngest boys with autism, who deserve to know the incredible man their dad was.

Most of all, this space is about hope.

Not polished hope.
Not easy answers.
Not pretending everything is okay.

But the kind of hope that survives even after devastating loss.

Jesus has carried me through unbearable grief with a peace I still cannot fully explain. God has become my provider, my comfort, and my steady place in a life that changed overnight.

I don’t have everything figured out.

I’m just sharing the other side of love, marriage, loss, faith, and survival — one story at a time.

I’m really glad you’re here.

— Ember

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