The Other Side

  You always said there would be plenty of time to sleep when you were dead.  So...why don't I believe you are sulking in a bed like I am today?   What is it like for you on the other side?  Are you seeing beautiful things and thinking: "Ah!  Ember would love this!"   Do you have those painful grief punches in the gut when you remember I am not in the next room?  I'm doing ok.  Really.  I just miss sharing life with you.  I can do one day at a time.  The thought of getting through a day is totally doable.  When I let my mind tell my heart you aren't coming back again it kills me.  I let that in for a bit today.  It was brutal. When this happens, I have a good cry, listen to this song and hand it over to Jesus.   He fills my broken heart with hope and thinking of you working in heaven puts a smile on my face. I'll keep working hard here to put a smile on your face too. We got this! 🤟 ("fake it till...

   I love that you and I communicate so well in Bitmoji. 😂  I'm mad because they've updated their avatars and now we don't look the same.  😡 Good thing I have a good stash of us in our texting thread to keep us alive.  I miss your face a lot.  I don't think it's a good idea to leave me here in charge of all the kids.   It was my turn to make dinner tonight and it was so gross.  I can't even get a crock pot meal right!!  I found a recipe to use all that stake I thawed on Sunday.  The only good part about it was the smell.  It went straight from the crock pot into the garbage!  God obviously knows this about me and knew you would be taken away from us, so I'm starting to see bigger reasons why Joshua and Jadon were sent to us.  They literally only eat PB&J, chicken nuggets and green smoothies, and are emotionally secure. (I'm sure there is a term for it.  Maybe emotionally protected is a better way of putting...