The Other Side

 

  Babe!  See what happens when I'm in charge? Let's not address the reason  the pool is green.  (my fault)  Let's focus on my amazing snapping skills instead. 👏 

 Today is July 16, 2025.  It's a normal day today, nothing unusual going on here, BUT today, 4 years ago, changed everything for us.   Today is July 16, 2021- the day we had our first session with Liz. I remember it well. I had the worst stomach ache during the session and the rest of the night.  I did not want to address the issues I had stuffed for 23 years.  I just want to run from them and you. I wrote: "It was his idea to see a Counselor.  I protested, confident it would not work, simply because I did not want it to work" Today is July 16, 2022- a year into our "repair."  While reporting to Liz in an email  I realized it was exactly 365 days from our first visit with her.  I wrote:   " Not only do I believe in love- I believe love   has the ability to create miracles!" Today is July 16, 2023- I am away for the weekend locked up in a room to recharge and write.  While in my journal I find an old post fro...

 Babe!!  One of the first things I thought of after you passed is: "Who is going to take care of me when I get sick?"  You are so good at that.  Especially when I have kidney stones.  😖 Well, guess what?  I HAVE KIDNEY STONES!!!  Did I cause this with all that anxiety I've been having? I could tell I was dehydrated last week.  I couldn't quench my thirst so as soon as I felt back pain, I feared this!  I'm learning that a lot of people end up in the hospital within a year of loosing their spouse.  I am trying really hard to avoid that! We're done having kids but apparently I'm not done having kidney stones.  Remember  this  and this . That makes about 5? That means 5 extra labor experiences.  THAT MEANS I'VE BEEN IN LABOR 12 TIMES!!!!!   I do agree that passing kidney stones can be WORSE than labor. I couldn't have made it through the last one (2022) without you.  That was a nightmare!!! Remember I pass...

 I never know if he's awake or what he's up to inside his room.  I've had a good laugh a few times when I've walked in so I decided to record our morning wake ups to catch a glimpse into his world when he is alone. This one had me dying:

 

 Hey Babe! Happy Sabbath! I did something new today.  We went to sacrament (late), sat on the back row, Jadon spilled EVERYTHING out of the Sunday bag onto the floor.  We (almost) sat still long enough for the bread and water. (He tried to climb onto the stage once, and almost escaped Abi twice and had awful farts!).  We were back in the car before the Deacons were dismissed to sit down with their families. 😂 I had already planned to leave right after the sacrament, but Jadon sped the process up.😂 It's not news that Joshua doesn't like church, at first I thought it was because of you. 😂 Remember how he didn't like YOU sitting next to me in church?  He got grumpy when we went to church because he wanted me all to himself. (which I want to mention here that since our reset I made a deliberate effort to sit next to you in church. We had too many years with kids and resentments between us, and I HAVE TWO SIDES!)  Well, I'm happy to report that you sitting ne...