When it rains it pours. Grief hit hard this month. I'm ok...until I'm not. I saved my emotions for you. This was a much needed cry. I talked about the murder of Macy, the effect death has on the surviving, the trauma of your death on my nerves and the difficulty of "keeping it together" when everything around me is falling apart. Driving in a snow storm with cars all around me sliding off the road, and not knowing if I was next, is a metaphor too close to home. All I can do is stay in my lane and pray. Thank you for being with me in those terrifying moments. Moments that I can't back out of. I have to keep going, even when I can't see the road ahead. A true "Jesus take the wheel" moment.