The Other Side

Hey Babe! Most days, I can move along and do ok while still carrying you on my heart.  I don’t cry every day anymore. I think I moved past that around the year mark in February.  I felt a shift that day. I wanted to be stronger in all the healthy ways. I wanted to wake up and face the day with intention instead of viewing it as another day without you.   I made it through all the “firsts.” For 365 days, every single day, I was surviving without you. And it was work.  I asked God to help me live a more intentional life once that first year passed.   The very next morning, I felt the shift. I didn’t feel sorry for myself anymore. I wasn’t living an incomplete day. It felt like life had potential again instead of limits. As long as I have routine, I do ok.  But when sunny days turn to rain and clouds, so does my mood.  The weather changed on Sunday… and so did I.   I want to escape when the sun hides.  I don’t want to be in mom mode.  I don...

Babe!  Abi is on the move. Keep an eye on her. 🤣 She’s taking the train down to Orem to spend the day with Jenn. ​

 Yesterday was a day of celebrations!!  Jennica turned 22 years old!   Remember that one year when we pretended it wasn't her birthday and instead celebrated YOU ?  We celebrated hers a day early so she wouldn't hate you for making her 5th birthday so boring! The theme I picked for her this year wasn't a princess one it was... Hay Day!  (aka that dumb farm game she is obsessed over 😁) She sort of moved back home after the funeral.  (still has her apartment but won't live there till next Fall) She is closer to work here, and she picked up another job...with Abi!! I hardly see her because she work so much, but it's really great when she works the closing shift with Abi so I don't have to go get her! Speaking of Abi... Celebration #2 is: Braces are off!!! I unfortunately, was not in a celebratory mood.  I managed to get the balloons and decorations up but that was the only happy I could provide.  The rest of the day was a struggle.  I was ...