The Other Side

Hey Babe!  I like to drive your truck because I feel closer to you.  It doesn't smell like you anymore but that can be fixed with a wet towel from swimming. 😂 For years your truck smelled like a pool and hot leather.   I put on your sunglasses when I was driving yesterday...and cried.  I'm realizing I do a lot of crying while driving.   The song  Somebody  played and the perfect storm was created. 🥰😭   I was interrupted  by Joshua in the backseat, totally oblivious of my sob session saying: "Mom? Can you turn off the music for one second?"  I turned the volume down. "Mom.  What does autograph mean?" He asked. I tell him an autograph is someones name written down and then given to someone.   "So, if you wrote Joshua on a piece of paper and then gave it to me I would have your autograph."  I explained.   I don't know what caused him to think about that at that moment. He got lost in his own t...

                                                                                               Babe! I’m a little mad at you.  You know how you would always praise Jadon when he would do something that would frustrate me/us.   Like:  when I leave the Nutella jar on the table and he finds it and smears it all over himself. Or when he would run away with my toothbrush or rub toothpaste all over the couch. Or escape out the door and you would yell out to him:  “Go Jadon Go!” Or when he would eat handfuls of dirt, or rocks. Whatever crazy thing he was doing YOU would  always praise him with a laugh and smile and say:  “Jadon!  You are such a good boy!”  You would egg...

  Hey Babe.   Thursdays will never be the same.  Our Addiction Recovery meeting was discontinued after your passing and I have been reassigned to a Zoom Family Support Meeting at 7pm.  It’s great that I don’t have to leave the kids for the evening.  Abi still babysits so I can run the meeting undisturbed.  I am companions with Peggy Aires and Elizabeth Mahas.  As great as they are, they aren’t…YOU! 🥰.  The night Jace was released from his mission, the Stake President also released you from yours.  I wasn’t expecting that to take place and to be honest, I was more emotional about that than I was about Jaces.  I begged them NOT to release me. I need this calling.  They told me to take some time and when I am ready they will reassign me.  I started attending the Support meeting in April, as a participant, but starting May (today) I am back as a Missionary.   Thursday’s were about “Us.”  I loved that break away...

                                             The best part of my day today was mowing the lawn.   It made me happy.   The second best part was watching the sprinklers.   I thought of you laughing at me while I watch them.   I know you would have enjoyed watching them with me today.   It was a gorgeous night.   I would have shown you all the new grass that is starting to sprout in the places I repaired last fall.   The front lawn is looking amazing, if I do say so myself.   I am so proud of my master piece.   Today I completed leveling the hill in the backyard and I reseeded it.   I watched the sprinklers run on that section twice today. 😆  Mom and I saw a snake by the rock wall and it didn’t even bother me.   🙄 What explains that?   It’s probably the one you let get away last year.   (Thanks a lot) Our...

  Last night Joshua was trying to be a “Tuff guy” so he went into the bathroom and watered himself down and came out to flex for me and grandma.  I asked him why he was all wet and he said because that’s how tuff guys look when they are strong…like Dad.  😁 FYI: You got a notice in the mail that your firearms permit expires on 7/21 I took all those cargo pants you just bought to the DI. I'm sad I didn't get to see you in your Rambo gear.