When I cry
Hey Babe!
I like to drive your truck because I feel closer to you. It doesn't smell like you anymore but that can be fixed with a wet towel from swimming. 😂 For years your truck smelled like a pool and hot leather.
I put on your sunglasses when I was driving yesterday...and cried. I'm realizing I do a lot of crying while driving.
The song Somebody played and the perfect storm was created. 🥰ðŸ˜
I was interrupted by Joshua in the backseat, totally oblivious of my sob session saying:
"Mom? Can you turn off the music for one second?"
I turned the volume down.
"Mom. What does autograph mean?" He asked.
I tell him an autograph is someones name written down and then given to someone.
"So, if you wrote Joshua on a piece of paper and then gave it to me I would have your autograph." I explained.
I don't know what caused him to think about that at that moment. He got lost in his own thoughts again and I turned my thoughts back to us and the song.
Remember I sent you that song after Vegas? This was one of the first love songs I felt I could relate to after our reset. The song wasn't around when we were teenagers but it fits the way I felt about you when we met. You were different.
"Hadn't known you for long but it felt like years.
From the second we met, I knew things would change."
Tears streamed down my face as I drove and I felt you near. When I cry I feel you. It feels like you are crying with me. Are you crying with me? We've cried enough together over the past 5 years, so when I cry I can see you crying. I literally feel you crying with me. I feel your love for me...for us. I cry for us. I miss us.
I was interrupted again by Joshua asking me if Jesus knew about Minecraft? And is he (Joshua) like God in Minecraft creating everything. 😇
I wanted to sit in my tears longer but this conversation was GOLDEN. Kids are still interrupting us. Some things may never change. 😂
I love you. Thanks for sitting with me in the tears.
🤟 Stay Close!