When I cry

Hey Babe!

 I like to drive your truck because I feel closer to you.  It doesn't smell like you anymore but that can be fixed with a wet towel from swimming. 😂 For years your truck smelled like a pool and hot leather.  

I put on your sunglasses when I was driving yesterday...and cried.  I'm realizing I do a lot of crying while driving.  

The song Somebody played and the perfect storm was created. 🥰😭  

I was interrupted  by Joshua in the backseat, totally oblivious of my sob session saying:

"Mom? Can you turn off the music for one second?" 

I turned the volume down.

"Mom.  What does autograph mean?" He asked.

I tell him an autograph is someones name written down and then given to someone.  

"So, if you wrote Joshua on a piece of paper and then gave it to me I would have your autograph."  I explained.  

I don't know what caused him to think about that at that moment. He got lost in his own thoughts again and I turned my thoughts back to us and the song. 

Remember I sent you that song after Vegas?  This was one of the first love songs I felt I could relate to after our reset.  The song wasn't around when we were teenagers but it fits the way I felt about you when we met.  You were different. 

                     "Hadn't known you for long but it felt like years.  

                From the second we met, I knew things would change."

Tears streamed down my face as I drove and I felt you near.  When I cry I feel you.  It feels like you are crying with me.  Are you crying with me? We've cried enough together over the past 5 years, so when I cry I can see you crying.  I literally feel you crying with me.  I feel your love for me...for us.  I cry for us.  I miss us.

I was interrupted again by Joshua asking me if Jesus knew about Minecraft? And is he (Joshua) like God in Minecraft creating everything. 😇

I wanted to sit in my tears longer but this conversation was GOLDEN.  Kids are still interrupting us. Some things may never change. 😂

I love you.  Thanks for sitting with me in the tears.

🤟 Stay Close!