Thanksgiving

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While we’re in the kitchen…

The college kids are home for Thanksgiving and so I stocked up on “people food” 🫣

It feels like old times when our fridge is packed but all they eat is cereal. 😆

Your pecan pie is missing. 😥 but if you look closely you’ll find your coke is still waiting for you. (2nd shelf) Thanksgiving was perfect and by that I mean low key, stress free. We did the usual, went to Black Bear and then an event. This year we did Illuminaria at Thanksgiving Point. 

It was fun being together again.

I didn’t get pictures of all of us. (Missing Abi and jadon) Kinda funny how I’ve stopped obsessing over pictures and focus on being present instead. 

 I’m so thankful for our kids. You’d be proud of their progress. The littles have enjoyed having the big ones home. They rough house with them like you would. It’s so refreshing. 

A full house without you is different. You’re missing but not absent. I feel you. I get unexpected and overwhelming emotions for you that bring me to tears. Real, raw emotions of grief to my core. My heart hurts and the tears fall and I sit with it for as long as it takes, but I go on, thankful for your presence even though it’s fleeting.  

I’m ready for the holidays. Christmas is exactly what I need. I’m going to fill our house with the Spirit of Christmas and be grateful for the life you’ve blessed me with. 

I’ll admit I’ve dreaded Christmas, assumed it would be more of your absence but it’s actually been the opposite. The more I embrace Christmas the closer to you I feel. I started putting up Christmas decorations yesterday, and already have most the shopping complete.(Black Friday deals started last week)

 I want to celebrate our memories and continue our traditions with joy not sadness and suppressing you makes me sad so I’m not going to do that. You loved our house during Christmas and I’m going to keep doing what we always did🎄

I told the kids to pick out a new pair of shoes for Christmas for a gift from you. 🥰You were the one to buy them new shoes so I’m going to keep that going each year. “Shoes from Sam.” 😘 👟 🎅 

December has always been a big month for us. Can I get through it without you?? It’s our Anniversary, your birthday, Christmas and New Year’s. 🥺

I’ll do it With You, Without You. 😘