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Kidney Stone

 Babe!!  One of the first things I thought of after you passed is: "Who is going to take care of me when I get sick?"  You are so good at that.  Especially when I have kidney stones.  😖


Well, guess what?  I HAVE KIDNEY STONES!!!  Did I cause this with all that anxiety I've been having? I could tell I was dehydrated last week.  I couldn't quench my thirst so as soon as I felt back pain, I feared this!  I'm learning that a lot of people end up in the hospital within a year of loosing their spouse.  I am trying really hard to avoid that!


We're done having kids but apparently I'm not done having kidney stones.  Remember this and this. That makes about 5? That means 5 extra labor experiences.  THAT MEANS I'VE BEEN IN LABOR 12 TIMES!!!!!   I do agree that passing kidney stones can be WORSE than labor. I couldn't have made it through the last one (2022) without you.  That was a nightmare!!! Remember I passed it the morning we boarded the boat for our cruise! 👏 Thankfully this round is mild compared to the others. It must be a smaller one. I'll take it as a slap on the hand and lesson to stay hydrated.  



We've checked all those boxes many times! (and a miscarriage box!)

Boy   ✅✅✅✅
Girl ✅✅
Twins ✅ (miscarriage)
Kidney stone ✅✅✅✅✅

My body is amazing. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger?? I don't want anymore kids or kidney stones!!!  I felt the pain just as I was leaving to mom's house for the weekend.  I haven't left town since you've passed. I am in Saint George for Joel Kroff's funeral. 😢 The timing was perfect to be staying with mom. She is playing with the kids while I hobble around like an old lady, drinking coconut water and popping ibuprofen. 
Saint George is hot as HELL!!!  How did we grow up here?  I'm not leaving her house to go anywhere except for the funeral. 😥. It was so beautiful.   Of course all the sons spoke, poor Ben...this is funeral #2 for him this year. That's rough loosing his Dad and you in a matter of months!  The way they talked about how Joel loved 💗 Marium reminded me so much of how you loved me. 🥰. Lucky us.
Thank you for verbalizing your love like you did.

I can imagine you and Joel embracing like Marium and I did at the funeral.  Torn hearts.  
I miss you.

I LOVE YOU! 🤟
Stay Close 😘  

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