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 Today is July 16, 2025.  It's a normal day today, nothing unusual going on here, BUT today, 4 years ago, changed everything for us.  

Today is July 16, 2021- the day we had our first session with Liz. I remember it well. I had the worst stomach ache during the session and the rest of the night.  I did not want to address the issues I had stuffed for 23 years.  I just want to run from them and you. I wrote:

"It was his idea to see a Counselor.  I protested, confident it would not work, simply because I did not want it to work"

Today is July 16, 2022- a year into our "repair."  While reporting to Liz in an email I realized it was exactly 365 days from our first visit with her.  I wrote: 

"Not only do I believe in love- I believe love has the ability to create miracles!"

Today is July 16, 2023- I am away for the weekend locked up in a room to recharge and write.  While in my journal I find an old post from 2012 wishing for a better relationship with you and I repost it to today's date because it came true. We got the do over! 🥰 I wrote:

 "I need to get better at forgetting and I’ll probably get better at LOVING while I’m at it. "  

Today is July 16, 2024- I don't write anything on this day, but my photo reel captured  this photo 

and a video of our dirty kitchen floors, and Nutella smeared on walls, doors, and windows in the shape of little Jadon's fingers.  All signs of a thriving family!

Today is July 16, 2025- I scheduled a session with Liz today.  I sat in my usual spot and we talked about you, me, and us. Today isn't what any of us expected.  The movie The Vow hits differently today. 🤯. We went through some similar stuff.  Today it is more clear to me that God is the writer of our story.  Just like he was today, all those years ago.

Today was a bad day, a day of miracles, a wish come true, a perfect day, and a day I am so thankful we didn't give up on.

I LOVE YOU! 🤟

Stay Close! 😘

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