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Mother's Day


Finally!  A Mothers Day with your Mom!! 🥰

My Mother's Day got off on a great start!  Abi got her Patriarchal Blessing this morning. 

 You know this, because you were there.  We all felt you. 🥰.

 I felt you as soon as I entered the room.  

Did you see all those books?! 

 I knew you'd love that room.  

You and Jarom would've been in heaven. (Ha! you literally are 😂)  

You and Patriarch Gibbons are kindred Spirits. So many of those books remind me of you.  

 It was a beautiful blessing.

 Abi especially loved hearing her future husband will remind her of you. 🥰


She told me she was really glad she didn't get her blessing earlier (before you died) because you are so present in it.  

The introduction is all about you; where you are and what you are doing right now. 

"Your father, a true disciple of Christ, has been gathered home to a glorious reunion with your Heavenly Father and  your Heavenly Mother. He is now an appointed messenger, clothed with power and authority, and commissioned to go forth and carry the light of the gospel to men and women who sit in darkness.  Your fathers angelic presence, which we feel even now in this room, will be with you forever to guide you, to guard you, and to comfort you.  In sacred times and places, he will be close to you, and in times of darkness or despair, he will be there to lift you and to shine a light on your path." 

Abi has a beautiful life ahead of her.  I can't wait to see how she navigates it with YOUR/our help.

Our sacrament started right after the blessing, I sat and cried through most of it because I kept thinking about feeling you.

  I'm getting smart...I travel with tissues 24/7.

  I cry all the time 😂

Oh!  I dreamt about you last night.

  You just showed up from the dead and started getting ready for church!!  

I told you we couldn't go to church. 

 You were going to die again, we had to get you to the hospital!!  

It wasn't a good dream.  I think my brain is trying to believe the is a chance you are coming back.

Jarom and Jace are still in New York.  My Mother's Day card: 😆


I pick them up tonight at the airport.  


The Knicks didn't win but they had a great time. I'll hear the update tonight.

Mother's Day went on as usual: I spent the rest of the day locked away, ALONE!! (In the "Teak Zone") 🥰. 

Jennica is watching the kids.

I have a play list that keeps you alive (and me in tears).

  It's on repeat.  

It's been a good day with you.  

The only thing missing (besides all of you) is a bowl of your homemade Vodka Pasta on a plater at my door, like you always did.  

Not only would you give me a weekend away for Mother's Day, you also made sure I had food.  

Even when I stayed in a Hotel you would personally deliver me food.  I love the way you love me.

  Today I settled for chicken nuggets. I ran downstairs when the kids were out of site and grabbed a plate. 

 Jennica made sure ice cream is stocked too.

Oh!  Jennica is YOUR daughter!😆. Yesterday she called me into the room and asked:  Do you want your Mother's Day presents today or tomorrow...and by tomorrow I mean right now?"😂 (read your version of this, here)

Then proceeded to give them to me.  She is so thoughtful, like you. 

Kathy texted me today. 💗 I am so thankful for her in your life.  I'm sure she was missing that phone call from you today, but happy for you to be in the arms of mom.

I bet Judy is missing your flowers today too.  

I miss you the most!  Thank you for crying with me again today.

🤟 I love you.

Stay close 😘

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