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Hey Babe,


#ImomSoHard!  I spent some time with Abi this afternoon, and left the boys home with Jace.  When I got back Jadon had major diarrhea and threw up on me. I knew something was wrong when he wanted me to hold him, so i grabbed a bunch of towels and cuddled with him.  It only took a few minuets and the job was done. Then he was back at bouncing off the walls. (see video) Our house smells like the sewer and is a total mess.  I did get the laundry I started, folded AND put away in the same day! 🤯 I know you'd be impressed with that. 😆 maybe you'd also be impressed with me spraying clothes and towels with the hose to remove vomit?

I had to be stern 😂 with the boys today and teach them how to behave when I am on the phone.  Jadon's little voice is so cute. He mimics sentences more than creates his own.   I was surprised at their response to me.  I need to use "Hobi Boys!" more often.  That got their attention.😆


Jadon is in bed next to me tonight with his tummy bubbling and nasty toots.  I hope he doesn't barf on me again.  He puts my hand on his stomach and says "Tummy hurts". I don't know what is going on.  Joshua threw up on Friday night also but felt fine after.  It was a sudden thing.   He never told me he was sick. If you were here, you'd be kicked out of bed tonight.  Joshua thinks it is "not fair" Jadon is sleeping with me.  I wonder if he will claim to be sick at bedtime tomorrow?

Hopefully we will sleep well.  I have a hot date with YOU tomorrow morning before school, at the Temple.  😇😘

The best part of my mom filled day was my ministering sisters brought us dinner.  It was SOOO nice to not have that to worry about.

🤟I Love You!! I'm giving you a pass tonight.  Don't stay too close.  We stink pretty bad.


Ps: I used your account at Deseret book today and you had store credit!  Conference edition was on YOU!  Thank you!! 🙏 🤩 





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